I felt really weird when I woke up this morning at ten am and realised that I could continue sleeping until godknowswhattime because I don't have to go to school.

Or rather, I don't have a school to go to.

It is really strange that, despite the fact that I loathe having to wake up at an ungodly hour to attend school (and still end up almost late), and hate almost everything about school except the canteen food (oh gosh how I miss orange bowl) and my friends and (some) of my teachers, I actually wanted to go to school today.

Especially when I was at amk hub and I saw all the students slacking around after school just like how I used to do all the time in sec 3 with ming qi and clare. And seeing this st nicks girl at ntuc (i guess she lives in amk?) and realising that I will never be able to wear that uniform and attend school ever again. Which is weird. As I had never really felt an attachment to st nicks, until the official last day of school months ago. And I had this horrible dreadful feeling when I realised that the next time I would wear that uniform and go back to school is the day when I will collect my results.

I had, in the past few months, conveniently forgotten about how shitty I felt after each paper, when I knew that I did not do very well (don't ask me how I know, it's just a gut feeling) and just did not think about the dreaded doomsday when I will have to face reality and accept the fact that yes, I did do damnbloodyshitty for o levels, and just move on with my life.

Said dreaded doomsday is just a week away, so before all hell breaks loose, I should just try to enjoy the remaining days yeah?