Listening to this on replay mode. Meaningful lyrics :)



把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人

Why am I not studying?!!!

I'm going to sleep with my bio textbook and lit books tonight to test the theory of diffusion.

Diffusion - (verb)
movement of substances from a region of higher concentration to a region of lower concentration

I'm so screwed for O's tomorrow that it's funny.

I want to be hardworking. And fatter.

Corrinne May - Everything In its time

Sometimes i wonder what lies ahead
How long til my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
so many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and i try to pray
in the silence i can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like that i'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
why i should give up
But i'm stubborn in the things i believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to the patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One i still cant see
A little surprise, like your love in your life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to the patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

I love my family.

I want to run far far away to a place where they cannot find me so that I wouldn't need to sit for the O Levels.

7 more days (technically, 6 days and 6 hours as I'm tying this out OMG) to the 1st paper.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!

这一刻 回头看见自己
这一路的风景 百感交集的我

Today's the last official day of school for the sec 4s.

I feel so lost suddenly. It is as if the security blanket I had which I did not even know of was wrenched away in a flash, leaving me frightened and confused.

They say "St Nicks is your second home" right from primary one, and I have always dismissed that statement as something to drill into our heads, so that we would be brainwashed into becoming the school's minions.

However, today, after 10 years (five-eighths of my life) in the school, I have finally realised that the statement is true. St Nicks really is my second home. As cliche as it sounds, St Nicks has really moulded me into the person I am today. And through the 10 years I have been in the school, I have so many experiences (good and bad), which have taught me a lot about life. Although I have to admit that I have become a lot more cynical over the years, but I believe that as you grow older, as you have seen the world for what it is (and the truth is ugly), you'll naturally become more cynical. However, I believe that all these experiences allow us to grow and mature more as a person, and I wouldn't change anything if I had a choice :)

Thank you, for a rewarding 10 years.

这一刻 时间变成行李
越过生命悲喜 陪伴著我前进
因为你 让我看清自己
面对未知的恐惧 脚步更加坚定

As I turn sixteen, here are sixteen goals I hope to accomplish in some form or another over the next year!

In the next year, I will:

1. Stop being pessimistic!!
2. Listen attentively in class and NOT sleep!
3. Or stone.
4. Be conscientious in my work
5. Actually start doing homework
6. And hand homework up on time
7. Stop worrying so much!!
8. Stop speaking singlish!
9. And stop saying 'you stupid idiot', 'you idiot' etc.
10. Make an effort to spend more time with family
11. Don't neglect friends and family for studies
12. Be more friendly
13. Stop screaming so much.
14. Be a better (and nicer) person
15. Start a diary
16. Be happy.

I want to stay in the Netherlands, where kids don't have to sit for exams for 7 years.

我竟然没有调头
最残忍那一刻
静静看你走
一点都不像我

原来人会变得温柔
是透澈的懂了
爱情是流动的
不由人的
何必激动着要理由

相信你只是怕伤害我
不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得
把我的梦摇醒了
宣布幸福不会来了

用心酸微笑去原谅了
也翻越了
有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的
开始懂了
快乐是选择

别搪塞藉口
到最后反反覆覆忙忙碌碌
辛辛苦苦不知为了什么

半途而废 你无所谓
少了自由怎能海阔天空
真是 自作自受自怜
　
Sometimes, you just don't know why, and for what goal, you are working so hard for..

These few days, that sense of.. I cannot even find the words to describe that feeling.. maybe it's just blankness I've been experiencing.

Everyday, I just go through the motions of what I'm expected to do, without even knowing the reason for working so hard. I just work hard, well, basically because it is an obligation? But seriously, I see absolutely no reason in working hard, other than the possibility of failing O's.

Okay, on to happier matters, I feel so accomplished today!

I was feeling super hungry at around 2.30 in the afternoon, so I went to the kitchen and tried to cook soba :D

And it turned out pretty good! You know, that feeling of jubliation when you feel like you have accomplished something?

The feeling was just..damn shiok. My vocabulary is too limited to describe the extent of my happiness. :D

I feel so lost nowadays. I have no clear plan of what I am going to do with my life and where I am heading for in life. I have no goals, no ambitions, nothing. Worst still, I have ABSOLUTELY NO MOTIVATION. Argh. Other than the fact that I will be screwed if I don't do well for Os.

English oral tomorrow, I pray that I'll manage NOT to screw up for once.

I need to go to K-BOX soon. Or some other karaoke place.
I think my neighbours are going to lodge a complaint about my super loud singing :/ Esp in the toilet.

Ahhhh CL O Level results out in 4 days time!

I'm feeling super restless now.